Friday, September 25, 2009

Hi baby girl!

Mommy loves you! Thanks for sending me some pink things today Kathlyn! Mommy loved that stuff! I saw the pink carseat, the pink balloon, and the cute little girl with hair and eyes like you waving and smiling at me. That was wonderful! You are such a sweet girl to peek in and say hello to Mommy, just when I needed you! Kisses for my sweet baby girl, you are so thoughtful and generous and kind and beautiful. I wish you could be all those things here with Mommy! I would have taught you to be those things, my sweetie, yes I would have! I know Jesus and God and the angels and Granddaddy are teaching you just right for me. Mommy misses you, and Daddy too... but we are glad you are in good company! Kisses for you! Kisses and tickles, I love love love imagining kissing and tickling you (gently for now, since you are just a little bitty one) because I know it would make you smile and kick your sweet little happy legs for me. I just love little baby-kicky-legs. You are just the cutest little baby when you do that! I miss doing those thing with you, so so much. I love you!

Daddy and I are going on a little trip for a week. We are just too sad without our little Joy.. so we need to go somewhere special together, somewhere we have never been before and will never go again. We will be thinking of you the whole time! We are bringing one of the little pink puppies with us to remind us of you. Not that we need reminding! We will be writing your name everywhere we go. You come with us everywhere, that's right! Our precious little angel baby, never far away from Mommy and Daddy.

So Mommy is sad because I won't get to write you a special letter on your 2 month birthday on September 30th. But Mommy will be thinking of you every second that day, and every day. Listen for me, I will keep talking to you all the time like I always do. The kisses, the tears, the smiles, whenever I tell Daddy I love him, it's for you too Katie! You were made just because Mommy and Daddy love each other so much. What a special little girl you are! Mommy loves you! You are still my baby!

Forever and ever,
Mommy

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Hi baby!
Sorry honey.. we didn't send balloons at the party today. I will send you one sometime my love, I promise. Kisses for you! But I wore one of your pink paci's clipped to my shirt so everybody knew I had the sweetest little baby angel up in heaven! Many of them could feel all of our children in the room. Were you there too?! I hope you were... I hope you were giving me kisses and taking little tastes of my brownies.. Mommy ate way too many! Daddy is home safely from work now.. we are going to sleep. Dreaming of you always! You are still my baby!

Love you forever,
Mommy

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Dear Kathlyn,
I miss you! Today I am going to a little party with some other mommies and daddies in memory of all our children who are angels.. just like you! You are the sweetest angel there is! That's right, Mommy's little angel. Kisses for you, kiss kiss kiss. I think we are going to have balloons at this party! Balloons! I bet you would have liked balloons Kathlyn. I will try to pick a pink one to release into the sky for you. Look for it, ok sweetheart? Mommy loves you! You are still my baby.

Love and miss you so so sooo much,
Mommy

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Dear Katie,
I miss you.. Daddy does too. You are still my baby.

Love you forever,
Mommy


Dear God,
Since I didn't get to hold her and tell her about You, could you tell her about me instead?

Love You forever,
Beth

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Hi Babygirl,
I saw your friend baby Kylie today.. she came to our house! She is Mommy's little shadow baby of you Katie.. she stayed in her carseat sleeping almost the whole time she was here, so Mommy could talk to her Mommy and Daddy. Little Kylie made some sweet little baby noises while she was sleeping, Mommy thought it was so cute and I was thinking of you the whole time.. I know you would make so many cute little baby noises for me too! Kylie is a special little baby and you have to watch over her too! Such a big job for you, my little angel, but I know you will do it for Mommy. Kylie went home with two sweet little outfits from your closet, and Mommy said "you have to put them on her very soon! And take a picture!" Mommy wants to see Kylie in these outfits because it reminds me of YOU! My precious baby girl! Kisses for you, kisses to the sky, kisses on your lips and on your sweet little belly and on your stinky feet! Kisses forever my angel, because I love you, and because you are still my baby! Missing you always.. and tell Granddaddy I said hello and give him one of the kisses. Here's three extras, kiss kiss kiss.
Love,
Mommy

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Oh.. and you are still my baby! One more kiss!

Love,
Mommy
Kathlyn,

Blowing kisses to the sky for you.. kisses kisses and more kisses. Kisses on your darling little lips, on your cheeks, on your belly, on your hands, and on your sweetest little footsies.. kiss kiss kiss! I miss you!

Love you forever,
Mommy

Monday, September 7, 2009

Hi baby girl!
I miss you! I have two very special things to show you my love. I hope you like them! Yes I do baby, I hope they warm your little angel heart. Kisses and tickles first.. kiss kiss kiss! I love you!

Daddy and I went for a ride the other day! We were thinking of you, and so we wrote your name at a very special park. This park has a fun playground and was built in memory of a special friend of Daddy's who is an angel now too. It was nighttime, so it was too dark to get a good picture. But here it is! Our sweet Kathlyn's name, that's you baby! We love you!




The other thing I have to show you is your friend Lauren! She is a sweet little girl who just turned one year old. She has two big sisters, and her Mommy and me were saying when you were in my belly that you would be a little sister for Lauren. Instead, you have a very special job.. you can look out for Lauren and her two sisters as a special guardian angel.. does that sound good, Katie, can you do that for Mommy? Remember.. Mommy doesn't understand how it is where you are. You will have to teach Mommy one day! You are Mommy's special angel, that's right my Kathlyn.. Mommy's very own little lovie! More kisses for you! My little angel! Kisses forever! So this is your very special friend Lauren. It makes Mommy sad to see Lauren and her big sisters Meghan and Nicki, but they also make Mommy smile. Lauren is wearing something so very special too. Do you know what it is, sweetie? It's one of YOUR OUTFITS!! That's right!! Isn't it so so cute?! Mommy was looking forward to putting this on you. But now that you aren't here, Mommy thinks it would be nice for all your little friends to wear something to remember you by. And Baby Lauren is the first!! When she is older, her Mommy and also me (YOUR Mommy forever!!) will tell her all about you and show her this outfit so they can know they have a special guardian looking out for them. You are Mommy's special girl in so many ways, Kathlyn Joy! Know what else baby girl? Mommy also gave Meghan and Nicki something of yours. They are too big for your clothes, Mommy didn't have any clothes big enough for them, but I gave them two of your little pink blankets because they love to play with dolls. So they will use your blankets to wrap up their dolls and give them hugs and kisses while they practice being little mommies. They know how special you are. Meghan gave Mommy a special picture that she drew and it says "We miss your baby." See how special you are baby?! So many people miss you! That picture is on the fridge at our house and it makes Mommy think of you.. even though I'm always thinking of you anyway! Always always always, because I love you so much! You are still my baby, Katie! Blowing kisses to the sky, and imagining kissing you always! MUAH!

Love,
Mommy

Friday, September 4, 2009



Mommy loves you! You are still my baby, yes you are! Kisses for you.. sleep tight and wait for me, baby.

Love you forever,
Mommy

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Dear Kathlyn,
Mommy misses you so much tonight and wants to sing to you again.


Oh my love, my darling,
I hunger for your touch.
Alone, lonely times.
Time goes by so slowly
And time can do so much
Are you still mine?

Lonely rivers flow to the sea
to the sea
to the open arms of the sea
lonely rivers sigh, "wait for me, wait for me"
I'll be coming home, wait for me.

My love, my darling
I've hungered, hungered for your touch, alone
lonely times.
I need your love
I need your love
God speed your love to me.


Love you forever,
Mommy

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

My darling Kathlyn,

Tell me, tell me that your sweet love hasn't died.
'Cause you are always on my mind.


Love you forever,
Mommy