Sunday, January 30, 2011

18 months

Baby girl,
Mommy loves you! 18 months feels like a big milestone.. it's your half birthday! I can't possibly spend a minute and a half without you, how a whole year and a half?! Are you a big girl now, a sweet little walking and talking little toddler, or are you my newborn baby forever? I wish I wish I wish you were here. Remember, Mommy doesn't know what it's like where you are, but I know you'll show me some day! I love you!

How different my life would be if you were here Katie-cat. I am about to have your little sister and I know you'd wanna be Mommy's helper but you're still so little, it's hard to be pregnant with a toddler at your feet! You know what though sweetie? It's HARDER without your toddler with you, much harder, and I would trade anything anything anything to be even more tired than I am now because I'm loving on you too and giving you everything you need. I wonder what you'd like to eat, what you'd like to watch, play with, if you'd always wanna take your shoes off or if you'd like your carseat, or baby dolls, pooh bear, puzzles, which books you'd like, which songs you'd know and how long your hair would be. I wish I knew all those things baby doll. It has to be enough to know that you're safe. But I miss you more than I can handle! Mommy loves Kathlyn so much! I'm so sorry you couldn't stay, baby girl. I would have done anything to save you. I'm trying so hard for your sister Glory. I know she'll miss you too, she'll miss having that big sister to be best friends with. We love you princess! You are still my baby.. kisses to the sky for you.. give some to Jesus and Granddaddy and Sissy Cherry for Mommy, ok?

Love you forever,

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