Kathlyn,
I love you! I miss you so much. Today you would be 15 months old. Is that how old you are, or are you Mommy's newborn baby forever? I would like to think that you're growing up and that Granddaddy and Jesus are teaching you so many things. My baby girl, how I wish it was Daddy and me who got to teach you. But I know you are safe where you are. I just miss you so much. Tomorrow would have been your 2nd Halloween and much more fun than last year. Last year you would have been too little to go out in the cold. I would have still dressed you up though and taken a million pictures! Because you're the cutest baby in the history of the world! This year you would be able to walk to a few houses and get some lollipops that I would let you eat. But Mommy would still worry and watch you so carefully! I would have dressed you as a puppy or a fairy or a ladybug or a bee or maybe even an angel..
I love you so much Princess... you are still my baby!
Love you forever,
Mommy
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Friday, October 15, 2010
A day to remember the babies
Katie-Cat,
Just wanted to send you kisses. MUAH! Look down at the earth today.. there will be a wave of light going all around the world. It's all for you, baby doll! I hope you can see Mommy's especially. Show Sissy too. Love you forever! You are still my baby.
Always,
Mommy
Just wanted to send you kisses. MUAH! Look down at the earth today.. there will be a wave of light going all around the world. It's all for you, baby doll! I hope you can see Mommy's especially. Show Sissy too. Love you forever! You are still my baby.
Always,
Mommy
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
missing my toddler
Dear Kathlyn,
My heart was heavier than usual last night. Mommy loves you and misses you so much! I think I used to get so sad looking at newborn babies, but now I get sad when I see sweet little toddlers your age. I see mommies at the hospital at work crying for their sick and hurt toddlers, and I cry for you. I'm so glad that you never felt pain and never will, but I would have gotten you through it like all mommies do. I wish you were here with Daddy and me toddling through the pumpkin patch. I bet you would say "ball!" to the pumpkins like most toddlers do! I would have worried that you would fall and bump your head on the platforms the pumpkins were sitting on. Mommy worries about everything! Silly Mommy! Do you get to see pumpkins and pretty fall leaves and drink hot chocolate and eat candy in the fall like we do here? Do you have everything you want and need? Does Granddaddy walk through the pumpkins with you? I hope he does. He missed out on his grandbabies too. He just has you! What a wonderful beautiful grandchild to know! I try to remind myself, Princess, that where you two are, you don't "miss out" on anything. It's just Mommy and Daddy who are sad without you. What a lonely place - every place without Kathlyn is lonely. I lived my whole life before without you, and now I don't know how to live the rest of it that way. I love you so much, baby girl! SO MUCH! I want to hold you and hug you so badly, my arms are still aching. I can trick my arms for a few minutes by holding babies at work, and it warms me up and makes me feel comfort. Are you there, baby? Are you there with Mommy and those other babies? I bet you can tell I'm thinking of you the whole time. My arms are tricked and calmed, but my heart knows, I will never hold you again until I'm up in the sky with you. That is such a heartbreaking sad, the kind of sad I hope that you can't even understand because you've never felt it. Can you feel how much I love you, babygirl? Do you know me, at least a little bit about me? I hope so my little doll. Send Mommy something pink so I know you are safe. You are still my baby! Kisses and hugs to the sky for you, and some extras to share with Sissy and Granddad. I love you, Princess.
Miss you forever,
Mommy
My heart was heavier than usual last night. Mommy loves you and misses you so much! I think I used to get so sad looking at newborn babies, but now I get sad when I see sweet little toddlers your age. I see mommies at the hospital at work crying for their sick and hurt toddlers, and I cry for you. I'm so glad that you never felt pain and never will, but I would have gotten you through it like all mommies do. I wish you were here with Daddy and me toddling through the pumpkin patch. I bet you would say "ball!" to the pumpkins like most toddlers do! I would have worried that you would fall and bump your head on the platforms the pumpkins were sitting on. Mommy worries about everything! Silly Mommy! Do you get to see pumpkins and pretty fall leaves and drink hot chocolate and eat candy in the fall like we do here? Do you have everything you want and need? Does Granddaddy walk through the pumpkins with you? I hope he does. He missed out on his grandbabies too. He just has you! What a wonderful beautiful grandchild to know! I try to remind myself, Princess, that where you two are, you don't "miss out" on anything. It's just Mommy and Daddy who are sad without you. What a lonely place - every place without Kathlyn is lonely. I lived my whole life before without you, and now I don't know how to live the rest of it that way. I love you so much, baby girl! SO MUCH! I want to hold you and hug you so badly, my arms are still aching. I can trick my arms for a few minutes by holding babies at work, and it warms me up and makes me feel comfort. Are you there, baby? Are you there with Mommy and those other babies? I bet you can tell I'm thinking of you the whole time. My arms are tricked and calmed, but my heart knows, I will never hold you again until I'm up in the sky with you. That is such a heartbreaking sad, the kind of sad I hope that you can't even understand because you've never felt it. Can you feel how much I love you, babygirl? Do you know me, at least a little bit about me? I hope so my little doll. Send Mommy something pink so I know you are safe. You are still my baby! Kisses and hugs to the sky for you, and some extras to share with Sissy and Granddad. I love you, Princess.
Miss you forever,
Mommy
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