Saturday, November 14, 2009

Hi sweetie,
I miss you so so much Kathlyn. Did you see that little baby I was taking care of at work? She was just your age! She was already holding up her head so strong, looking all around the room at everything, and she could even stand when her mommy held her up! WOW! My precious little Katie would be such a big strong girl already, yes you would! You would be kicking your little feet and smiling at Mommy when I give you belly kisses and tickles. How I long for that Kathlyn. I wonder so much what you would look like and what you'd be doing. I miss you baby, I miss you. It's a sad, difficult feeling that I can only hope that you've never, ever had to feel. I always remind you my sweet princess, that I don't understand what it's like where you are. I don't understand because I believe that you miss Daddy and me, and Gram, and Grandpa and Grandma D, and all your aunts and uncles and cousins and all of Mommy's and Daddy's friends who would have loved you so much. If you miss us, is that a sad feeling for you? I don't want you to be sad. I am sad enough for all of us. I know you don't want me to be sad, but I can't help it my darling. I want you here with me. You are my precious little baby and I love you with all my heart. It is so sunny and warm here today even though it's winter. And I wish you were here with me so we could enjoy the sunshine together. But that is another thing I can hope for.. that ALL the days for you and Granddaddy are uncloudy. And that when you miss us, it doesn't hurt. And that you're never sick with disease and suffering like that little baby I was taking care of at work. That is my wish and my hope for you, sweetheart. I would rather you were here with me... and I would get you through the hard times and the sickness... take away the pain when I could. But Mommy doesn't have a choice. Mommy doesn't always get what she wants. So that is my wish for my beautiful, perfect baby daughter, my angel baby forever. My princess Katie, you are still my baby, forever and ever. Kisses to the sunny sky for you. Send me something pink again soon, it warms my heart to think that you are with me.

Love you forever,

1 comment:

  1. Hi Beth,

    I just came across your blog and started reading about your baby girl. I am so very, very sorry for your loss. It never ceases to amaze me just how many of us broken hearted mommy's there are out there.

    Happy 6 months, Katie.

    Strength to you.