Cherry Baby

Kathlyn,
Please give your Sissy a kiss for me today. It was 1 year ago that we found out she went to heaven to be with you and Jesus and Granddaddy. We love her, she is still our baby and she was wanted too. Take care of her for us. Mommy, Daddy, and Glory love you both so much. You're still Mommy's babies!

Miss you millions,
Mommy

Mommy's birthday

Hi Katie!
Oh how Mommy wishes you were here for my birthday. I wish you were here to wake me up with a big jump and a hug and kisses. Your smile would be so big and I bet you'd even be big enough to SAY happy birthday to me now! I wish you could have come shopping with us, and then were here to have pizza with us and our friends, and you'd be playing happily on the floor with the kids your age while Mommy and Daddy have our bible study. I miss you so much, baby girl. Also any time I'm laying with Glory and Daddy I want you to be there too. Then I see your little lambie on the bed with us and it makes me smile. Miss you more than ever and I wish you were with us for all the celebrating. Really I miss you for ALL things! I wish I wish I wish.. I just keep wishing. You are still my baby.

Love you forever,
Mommy

20 months without you.

My heart is broken. I love you, Kathlyn. You are still my baby.

Always and forever,
Mommy

Hi Katie-cat!
Mommy misses you! Today your baby sister is 1 month old, and I just wanted to tell you how much I miss you. I wish I had my little 1 month old and my little 19 month old here with me. We would have so much fun together. Sisters and Mommy and Daddy. And the puppies too of course! I miss you every day, every minute, every second my princess. Time has gone so slow without you, but since your sister is here, it has gone so much faster and Mommy is realizing exactly what we missed with you. I wish I got to nurse you, and see your eyes, and hear you cry. I wanted to change your diapers and dress you up and take you for walks and teach you how to do puzzles. I miss you so much. I just pray that you are safe and warm and happy where you are. I love you so much pretty girl. You are still my baby! Kisses to the sky for you forever.

Always,
Mommy

19 months

Hi sweetie,
Mommy loves you! I remember telling you last year how there's no 30th in February. So there's not an exact special day for me to write to you, except just on the last day of the month. But I bet where you are, you already know more than Mommy! So you already understand about all the days and months of the year. I miss you so much baby. I wish I was the one who got to teach you all those things. Please send Mommy something pink so I know you are safe. I love you! You are still my baby.

Love you forever,
Mommy

My beautiful baby girl,
Mommy loves you! I miss you so so so so so much! You know Mommy has been so very busy with your new baby sister, Glory Joy! Her middle name is after you! She looks a little bit like you, but not exactly. When I look at her with a hat on, she reminds me of you. You have similar eyes and mouth and nose. We think you look more like Daddy and Glory looks more like Mommy.. you are both the most beautiful babies I have ever seen! The most beautiful babies in the history of the world and of heaven and earth! I miss you more than ever, Kathlyn. I didn't know I could miss you more, but I do. I miss you as a newborn like your sister. I wish we had a chance to nurse together and wear all your cute clothes and go for walks and that you and Daddy could get to know each other. You are my first baby, yet I didn't get to learn how to do anything with you. I am so sorry baby girl. Mommy tries to remember that you are safe and happy and warm and loved where you are.. you have everything you need, more than Mommy could ever imagine. But it is so hard for me here without you. Remember baby, I don't understand what it's like where you are. I pray all the time that you are ok and not missing out on anything... only Mommy is. And that makes Mommy very sad. But I can still love you with all my heart! And my biggest hope is that you can still feel that love. You are still my baby! Kisses to the sky for you, princess. I love you!

Miss you millions,
Mommy

18 months

Baby girl,
Mommy loves you! 18 months feels like a big milestone.. it's your half birthday! I can't possibly spend a minute and a half without you, how a whole year and a half?! Are you a big girl now, a sweet little walking and talking little toddler, or are you my newborn baby forever? I wish I wish I wish you were here. Remember, Mommy doesn't know what it's like where you are, but I know you'll show me some day! I love you!

How different my life would be if you were here Katie-cat. I am about to have your little sister and I know you'd wanna be Mommy's helper but you're still so little, it's hard to be pregnant with a toddler at your feet! You know what though sweetie? It's HARDER without your toddler with you, much harder, and I would trade anything anything anything to be even more tired than I am now because I'm loving on you too and giving you everything you need. I wonder what you'd like to eat, what you'd like to watch, play with, if you'd always wanna take your shoes off or if you'd like your carseat, or baby dolls, pooh bear, puzzles, which books you'd like, which songs you'd know and how long your hair would be. I wish I knew all those things baby doll. It has to be enough to know that you're safe. But I miss you more than I can handle! Mommy loves Kathlyn so much! I'm so sorry you couldn't stay, baby girl. I would have done anything to save you. I'm trying so hard for your sister Glory. I know she'll miss you too, she'll miss having that big sister to be best friends with. We love you princess! You are still my baby.. kisses to the sky for you.. give some to Jesus and Granddaddy and Sissy Cherry for Mommy, ok?

Love you forever,
Mommy